Just a tear

Today was a big day for me.

It was the first day of the rest of what our life will be full of - growing up.

Natalie is 4 and since her birthday is in October she just missed the cut off for kindergarten. So all of her friends headed off to elementary school, and Natalie headed off to pre-school this morning. She went to sleep smiling last night asking for a story about school. She woke up smiling and was so giddy! We got a new backpack, and some new school shoes (kind of a pain that they need socks and closed toe shoes when we are a crock and sandal family!).

So we drove up, brave mom and all. She got out, I snapped a quick picture and then as she walked into the door with her teacher the water works came. I totally cried! My baby is growing up and there is no turning back.

It was kind of like that feeling when I was pregnant with her and it hit me, "you will never be alone again. You will never have your time to be selfish again. You now have another somebody that will depend on your for everything." I was kinda scared then that there was no turning back, and I am a little scared now. She will only go to the next grade and get older and older. AH!

THEN I started to think about when she is a teenager and the things I will worry about. The things that will keep me up at night, like "why isn't she home yet? Why does she think she can wear that? who is that boy?"etc. and decided that I LOVE to be woken up by bad dreams and wet beds. I would much rather deal with that then staying up all night worrying.

I AM SCARED FOR HER TO GROW UP! I know everyone says it happens way too fast, but when you are living it everyday and are tired and worn out, it is hard to remember to cherish the moments we have.



While Natalie was at school, we decided to head to the mall for some TLC with the other kids. It is supposed to be Court's nap time but it just wasn't gonna work out today. 2 of the cousins started pre-school today too so we met up with them and we played, Carousel-ed, shopped, and they did awesome. We had fun, but I couldn't wait to pick up Natalie and hear about her day. She was excited to tell me that she got to be the leader to go outside and that she got to go to the bathroom. She didn't give me much else. Why am I expecting a play by play of the whole day of a 4 year old?

This last weekend Brian and I had the chance to go to the Temple. It was beautiful and wonderful and it is always a great few hours. We went with some friends and luckily I brought my camera for a little photo op.

Brian made me laugh in this picture because after he saw it he said "I totally look like a professional athlete. Look how tall I look! Its like you were walking around the temple and saw me and said 'wow! There is that pro-athlete, I need a picture with him!'" haha

Then off to Uncle Julios, one of the best Mexican places to eat, our opinion. It was as good as melty frothed garlicy Mexican butter, guacamole, and homemade tortillas can be. AWESOME! Ending the night having friends come over for late late night of games like Settlers of Catan is always right up my alley. I'm a gamer, total gamer.

So having an emotional day today. Hopefully nothing else unexpected or "grownup" happens because I don't know if I can take it! Here's to losing my babies to the world of adults.