Here we go, starting another week. Trying to squeeze in getting my normal day to day things done amongst all the other things I am doing that also have to be done. I don't see myself having time to cook this week, so I will go ahead and pass that on to someone else, thank you very much! We plugged in the external hard drive and were watching family videos since we have been married. It was so fun to watch. Brian took the computer away from me though after a while because he said I was going to want to have another baby after watching ours.
There was some truth to that. My babies are some cute babies and I love to go back and think about how they were. My memory sucks and I already forget their sweet baby coo's and giggles. Their chubby cheeks and silly unstable walking. I have made 3 wonderful miracles who I love so very much and I am so blessed to have them. LIFE wouldn't be complete without them, that's for sure. HOWEVER, the thought of having another one makes me cringe. I know that my anxiety came on after I had Courtney. Not that it was her that brought it, cause it wasn't. But just having 3 little people around brought out craziness in my children, and made me a little on edge. I am JUST now learning how to handle my own feelings and anxiety. Maybe one day we would consider bringing another little one in, if that is in the plan... but for now I am just happy and overly content with who we have in our family.
It also helps to have sweet cousins around to come and play and hang out to fill voids I may feel. When Natalie goes off to school we always welcome our little visitors to come and be silly with us!