Sunday, May 25

These littles

These kids kill me. They are sweet,sassy, snugly, grumpy, sad, and everything else in between. We are always busy with this it that and his month has been no exception. 
We have been out to eat more than usual which is my favorite thing to do. Eat and be served. I will explain my reason for more than usual eating out later...
We took a trip to Houston one quick weekend. I was able to work some and list a house and help them find a new house. I was also able to get my head shots taken from the very talented Whitni!  It was fast and busy and very productive! It was also Mother's Day and we got to spend it with Whitni and her family. Brent made us to breakfast lunch and a delicious dinner... Complete with fresh crème brûlée - mmmmm!
The weather has finally gotten beautiful and we have been loving being out there. Libby and Sean moved in right up the street from you, and it is so fun to have them so close. When they first moved here two years ago, we contemplated if we wanted to be in the same word. We have been trying it out for two years and love it and finally decided that there is no reason not to live even closer, now we can walk to each other's house and it is perfect! I give her total props for being halfway pregnant and playing soccer with my kids. She has all the energy!! 
that being said I have none of the energy. If you can't tell from the picture below, yes I am pregnant. I cannot believe that I am announcing it either. I have been letting it just happen on its own and letting my belly grow without having to worry about telling anyone. Now my belly is too big and I think it is unavoidable but I have to tell people I am pregnant, if they didn't already know and noticed that I am growing a huge belly. This picture is from 13 weeks, I am now almost 15 weeks. I am showing way sooner this time than I have with my others, I am still sick, I am still tired, and I now have heartburn. This pregnancy was not part of the plan, so I am still having a hard time putting my mind around having four kids. After having three kids, I was doing with a lot of anxiety and had to go and see a counselor.  I am so scared to bring another child into this world for my reaction and my anxiety that I will deal with. I hope that the fact that my kids are all older will help a lot with the situation. When I had Courtney Natalie was three Boots was two and Courtney was a newborn. This time around Natalie will be eight, boots will be six, and Courtney will be four. I am still terrified to have another child, also we just got rid of all of our baby and maternity things that we own! Literally we got rid of the last of it about a month or two before we found out we are pregnant. I am due in November, and we find out what it is in about a week. I think at that point I will start to get really excited.
I love spending time with Courtney every day, she is just a real sunshine in my life. She is so sweet and thoughtful and smiley, other than when she is grumpy and crying and tired(which is half the time!). 
This is not a great picture of Libby and I, but we were able to sneak into the airport and give my dad a big hug as he was on a layover here in Dallas. I sure love my family, I don't know what I would do without them. I seriously have the best parents and siblings. And yes you can kind of see my belly again at 14 weeks in this picture. Why does it look like I am 22 weeks along? I don't know. And I don't want to talk about it.
The kids have started their swim lessons, and they are doing wonderful. Natalie and boots are both learning strokes and Natalie is excelling very well at it. Boots just looks like a spaz.  Meanwhile, Courtney gets the cutest bum in a swimsuit award. She is also the chatterbox of her class, I had to tell her swim teacher that she doesn't have to talk to her anymore in class!
now for the really exciting news, on Friday Brian called me around lunchtime and told me that he had gotten braces!!! I was so surprised and shocked as he was only going in for a consultation. I am looking forward to him having straight teeth and healthy mouth, but I am not excited about having a husband who looks 12 for the next 15 to 18 months of our lives. Uggg! I had braces when I was 11 and 12. It is so weird to see them with them.  It also helps that our nephews Braden and Drew just got them as well!! 
May has been crazy and June will be even crazier, but I am so blessed to have such a healthy happy family and to live in such a beautiful place around people I love.
I am so grateful that we have access to modern medicine and doctors are at our fingertips. I am so grateful for heavenly father who was there to listen to our prayers when we need him the most. And I am so grateful for a loving family that knows what's important!


Alysha said...

OH MY GOODNESS!! I'm SOOOO excited for you!!! you'll be just fine! Just think, you'll have 3 handy helpers. I'm sorry you're not feeling well though. I can totally relate. I hope it eases up soon. CONGRATS!!

Aidan Jordan said...

So fun hanging out with you guys yesterday. It's been way too long! You look so cute and we can't wait for a new little Rawlins baby!

BrittanyB said...

Okay, I knew it! I just had this feeling while reading your last couple posts. Hope you feel better soon!

Meagan M said...

YAY!! I'm so happy you're having a 4th...and I totally get your fears! I'm always thinking about a 4th too...and it scares me. I don't deal with anxiety, but I do deal with postpartum depression...and I'm just scared what having a 4th will do to me and my kids. So I just try not to think about it.

BUT I think you're right about having older kids. That's got to be half the battle. You're going to be awesome!! You will!!

Wiseguys said...

I've been thinking about you a lot. I think you will definitely find having a baby when your youngest is 4 is a big difference. Even having Colton be 3 instead of 2 made a huge difference this time. My kids have done amazing with Hudson and they have all be very helpful. I honestly thought this transition has gone smoother than any of the other ones. Good luck girl!!!

Stacey Salmon said...

Love you Jeni. You will do great with 4!!!

The JL McGregor Family said...

Congratulations Jeni!! You are one cute pregnant momma!